Ouch…hard reminder today that occasionally people let each other down in a big way. Harsh to work with someone for a long time and know them for years and face the reality that sometimes they can harbor hardness, jealousy or bitterness in their hearts. When they are in positions of power over another, sometimes that bitterness leaks out.
People make decisions for a variety of reasons; but, sometimes they just make them when they are reacting to emotional situations. Misunderstandings occur when people don’t communicate honestly.
I think my situation today isn’t over. I said some things in response in a real way that was not spiteful but was direct. The person i responded to; i am not so sure will communicate back in the same way. It makes me sad.
I am not the kind of person to let it roll off of my back…but i am trying to not take it personally. But, it still hurts that someone who’s known me for most of my life could be so far off the mark about my intentions or my actions.
Ahh…for the simplicity of childhood…where we just punch each other in the nose and get over it hahaha. Seriously, i pray that some healing takes place…it is way too important of an issue.
How is it that another’s opinions can mean so much? I guess it is a testament to the fact that; i try so very hard not to hurt another person’s feelings that i will bend over backwards to give the other person the benefit of doubt, even when other’s tell me not to bother. But ya know…i don’t like being suspicious of people’s intentions or actions. I would rather risk trusting someone, than doubt everything they say.
One day at a time…i gotta keep reminding myself. Update: Things have cleared up with some open and honest communication. The issues have cleared; love and respect once again are the normal standard in our relationship. Thank God!
Here is a possibly related story: http://learningfolder.net/blog/?p=126
Write where you are 
It is hard to realize that even those closest to us can let us down. This is why I take refuge in the One that can’t. It’s nice to know there is always someone in my corner at all times. People aren’t perfect and that will emerge at some point (myslef included).
Debbie aka The Real World Martha