Posted in abandonment, abortion, abuse, addictions, attitude, tagged bittersweet holiday, children, emotions, encouragement, enlarged heart, happiness, Heart, joy, love, Mother's Day, pregnancy, relationships, sadness, support on May 9, 2011|
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Mother’s Day is one of those holidays that is bittersweet for many people. All women aren’t mothers. Some individuals don’t have mothers that they remember fondly or as a mother that deserves kudos for the life she has lived. Their are birth mothers, foster mothers, adoptive mothers and mother like figures. Some of those mothers are great mothers and natural at nurturing and some mothers have issues like addictions, or emotional problems…
That being said…even those mother’s have something for which to be remembered and that is for bringing their children into the world. At the most basic level…giving life is something to honor; since not every woman who discovers she is pregnant makes the choice to give birth to her child. If you had a mother who only functioned at a bare minimum, then I hope you had another woman who filled a mother- like role in your life, encouraging, teaching, praising and loving you; someone to step in and protect you. Acknowledge that person on mother’s day and don’t let the negative emotions in regards to whether a birth mother was mother of the year or not; choose to celebrate love.
I’ve been blessed and I want to take a moment to celebrate love. A few years ago, we were told that my mother had an enlarged heart. This was traumatic as my mother was/is one of those women who loved and encouraged her children as we grew up. She continues to do this. Now her medical condition has been treated with medication and close monitoring; we are grateful for that. However, it got me to thinking about mothers who love deeply.
I thought about the changes that happen when a woman is pregnant. Her emotions change, her mind changes as she makes decisions that she feels are the best for her and her child. Hopefully, she has a loving and supportive mate to help her as she parents her child…not everyone does. A pregnant woman’s spirit changes too…she has to think beyond herself and how the life of the child she carries will be influenced by the choices she makes in life. Finally, her body changes…oh you know the usual: weight gain, swollen ankles, varicose veins…hemorrhoids…headaches and cravings. The important change I think for a woman who really wants to be a mother, is that her heart enlarges…it makes room for more love than you can imagine a heart to contain.
That love is what builds a life that can withstand problems, challenges, and negativity that is sure to come their way as they live their lives. That love is what opens the door to the good things in life that are meant to be enjoyed and nurtured. That love is what keeps the human race continuing.
I think mothers who chose to love and are loved in return should be celebrated. If you didn’t get that, from the luck of the draw, at the moment of your conception & birth…you can still find it. Everyone wants and needs that kind of love in their life. Be sensitive towards those who you know have a hard time at this time of year due to abandonment issues, abuse, neglect or due to the death of their mother figure. Be a role model and encourage those who are sad or lonely or feeling cheated in the mother department.
This world is full of women who have enlarged hearts and are willing to share them. Find someone to celebrate the good things in your life with. Whether it be as a sister, a friend, an auntie, a grandma, a daughter…a teacher, a neighbor or a pen pal; a mother’s heart can be found in a multitude of relationships. Let yourself love and be loved. Don’t let a broken biological accident of birth scar you into a negative mother’s day. Find someone who can share an enlarged heart with you…and give & receive the best that life has to offer…a truly wonderful Mother’s Day!
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Posted in abandonment, anger, attitude, comfort, communication, death, emotions, Faith, family, friendship, Frustration, grief, life, loss, observations, opinion, prayer, tagged anger, emotions, Faith, God, grief, loss, questions, suffering, tragedies on January 21, 2011|
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When life throws the worst it has to offer at you; it’s hard not to ask, Why God? Why me, or my family, my friends…why must we suffer so? Watching the news and hearing the evil that takes place, the violence, the intolerance, the hate, the cruelty…it pushes the emotional hot buttons inside of the human heart. It is not that you wish those horrifying things to happen to another human being…but, surely anyone who has suffered deeply wants to know why they are suffering. That is natural, don’t you think?
There must be an answer to help hurting hearts to understand, that what is happening to cause them pain, isn’t happening because they are a bad person, or for no apparent reason at all. The mind and the soul just needs to make some kind of sense of it all. Understanding tragedy is no easy task. People have differing opinions on why bad things happen. If you would like to finish reading this post click here: Writewhereyouare
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Posted in abandonment, abuse, children, crime, culture, death, emotions, entertainment, horror, legal, life, media, murder, news, pain and misery, Passing Away, respect, tagged Caylee Anthony, court, death, decency, disappointment, entertainment, Florida, humanity, humiliation, indignity, judge, killer, loss, man on ski lift, media, memory, misery, murder, news, offend, photographs, prosecutors, remains, respect, videos on January 8, 2009|
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Ok…this is seriously outrageous. Little Caylee Anthony, who was murdered in Florida, is the focus of an important court motion. It is shameful that not only was the 2 year old murdered and thrown away, like an animal left on the side of the road after being hit. However, it gets even worse because, there are “people” who are trying to get access to the pictures of the photographs of Caylee’s remains. Matter of a fact, Caylee’s killer showed less respect for her life, than most people do when they hit an animal, accidently, while driving down the road.
Prosecutors in the legal case are allegedly asking the judge to put restrictions on the photographs of Caylee’s remains. There are photographs on disk that are allegedly being given to the lawyer representing Caylee’s mother for the case. However, reports say that big time media have paid money to get licensing rights to photographs and videos of little Caylee when she was alive. Any kind of pictures would be of interest to those who wish to bring viewers a new picture before it gets in the hands of a competitor. Prosecutors want to pre-empt any possible attempt of improper use of the photographs that will be used as evidence in the case; that is just common sense. They need to safeguard the process of the legal system, so that justice can be served without jepardizing the outcome of the case by the misuse of the evidence.
This should just be a matter of common sense…however, there are those who will push the envelope of decency. Just earlier this past week…a gentleman who was skiing had an unfortunate incident on a ski lift and was suspended upside down, his pants and underclothing yanked off of his body, and pulled down to his ankles. Here he was, hanging upside down…naked from the waist down to his feet…and, people actually took pictures and posted them on the internet. It appears that people truly do not care about decency or respect of another person’s misery. In Caylee’s situation, she is not alive to be humiliated or saddened; however, she had family, friends and neighbors who are horrified by the idea of having pictures of Caylee’s remains published and put on display; for money, or for ratings.
It is outrageous that these types of legal measures even have to be considered. Caylee was a victim of murder. She was tossed away and hidden. She was not buried in any semblence of respect or caring. She was offered no dignity in death. She was a little girl who deserved to live; but, because someone stole her life from her, she was not protected from this further indignity.
I hope that the courts impose very strict guidelines regarding how these sad photographs can be used. I think that anyone who makes money off of photographs or video’s of the young child should be ashamed of themselves. Even the pictures of a happy, living, breathing Caylee only seem to underscore the horror of the knowledge that she died too young and in a horrible way. Programs that would use the videos and pictures to build stories around, are to me, another assault on the memory of Caylee.
People all around the nation have gazed upon the pictures that are already out there of her. We know in our hearts and minds that an innocent 2 year old child should be remembered as just that, an innocent 2 year old child. She should not be remembered as she was left in the woods. Her short life should not be marketed for a news program or an entertainment program. She doesn’t have to be humanized for the masses…because we all know and love other children her age; it isn’t hard to imagine what she was like.
I don’t think we have heard the last of things in this case that will offend us, outrage us, sadden us, or just plain disappoint us in the condition of our culture’s humanity levels; do you?
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Posted in abandonment, anger, children, Christmas, crime, custody fight, death, depression, divorce, emotions, family, finances, friendship, help, Holiday, home, husband, life, loss, love, marriage, mental and physical health, mother, murder, news, organizations for special needs, pain and misery, parenting, Passion, relationships, sadness, suicidal, suicide, support, trauma, Uncategorized, violence, tagged answers, assets, child, Christmas, counseling, custody, disabled, divorce, domestic violence, emotions, friends, husband, job loss, lawyers, marriage, mental health, needed, Passion, questions, revenge, Santa, shooting, suicide, survivors, tragedy, violence, wife on January 2, 2009|
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For those who have not heard the news story this past week; a man by the name of Bruce Pardo dressed up as Santa and went on a shooting rampage directed at his ex-wife and her family. He was aware that they held an annual Christmas party. He had been planning this for quite some time. About a week or so before the shootings took place…Bruce Pardo and his estranged wife, Sylvia, were officially divorced after 2 years of marriage. This man who dressed up as Santa, needed help. If he had gotten it…maybe this tragedy would not have happened.
It sounds as if the Pardo’s marriage was one of deceipt. Mr. Pardo had not disclosed to his wife that he had a child from a previous relationship that he did not see, nor did he help support. It seems that when this child was a toddler in Mr. Pardo’s care; the child ended up in a pool and almost drowned. The young child is now around the age of 7 ; but, Bruce Pardo kept this child a secret from his wife. She discovered that the child existed by going through tax papers and finding out that he claimed the child as a dependent. He denied the situation and Sylvia called her mother in law who confirmed that a child did in fact exist and was disabled. She filed for divorce…he did not want it.
It seems that during this time…Bruce also lost his job and then was ordered, by the court, to pay support to his soon to be ex-wife. By all appearances…Bruce did his best to follow through on the court’s dissolution of his marriage….yet, all along he planned his revenge on the woman who divorced him and those who were closest to her and helped her to leave him.
Bruce rented two vehicles and he had things planned out. He had an extra large Santa suit made up for him. It seems that at the annual party, Santa always showed up. He went to the home with a gift in his hand…when the door was opened by a young 8 year old girl…he opened fire, shooting her in the face. He then went about shooting and looking for specific people. After he shot the people he went looking for…he then used a homemade device to set the home on fire; inadvertantly causing himself 3rd degree burns when part of the Santa suit melted into his skin from the incendiary device he used to start the fire.
People in the home had tried to hide and some were able to flee. A sister of Sylvia’s escaped to a neighbors with the young 8 year old girl who was shot in the face. She was able to call 911. After starting the fire, Bruce Pardo shot out street lights…allegedly to help further his escape.
People are speculating that he had plans to shoot his own mother who was planning on attending the Christmas party, at her ex-daughter in laws parents home. She felt ill that evening and was not able to attend. Bruce blamed his mother for siding with Sylvia in the divorce. Also allegedly a possible victim of violence was the divorce lawyer who represented Sylvia. One of the rental vehicles was sitting near the lawyers home.
It appears that Bruce changed his plans after he was burned. It is thought that he was in great pain. He allegedly had purchased a plane ticket for Illinois to go there and cross the state line into Iowa to see a friend. He also had about 17,ooo.oo dollars plastic wrapped to his body. Instead of implementing those plans…he drove approximately 30-40 miles to his brothers home and broke in and shot himself dead.
What is hard to understand is; didn’t anyone who knew him or had occasion to spend time with him, during the weeks preceding the violence, see his mental breakdown? Was he so good at hiding his wrath that he was able to misleed the people in his life? Or did he isolate himself a this time?
Those familiar with the divorce situation say that he seemed almost eager to have it over with. The neighbors say that he was friendly and even wished them a Merry Christmas after telling them he was attending a Christmas party.
People who knew him said he was a friendly guy. They are shocked. And yet, a close friend of Sylvia allegedly said that Sylvia said he changed almost immediately after the marriage. He became secretive. Others say that Bruce had a secret guilt about the child that was gravely injured on his watch. The mother of the child allegedly says that he was involved when the child was in the hospital; but then…he didn’t visit nor did he support the child. In fact, he kept the child a secret from many…including his new wife.
The thing is…people who struggle with mental health issues dont always get the help that they need. Bruce Pardo needed that kind of help to cope with the feelings that he had from the tragedy that happened to his child. He needed support and counseling to heal up from the guilt that he most likely felt after the child was injured. He needed to have pre-marital counseling to help him break the news of this part of his life to his intended wife.
Sylvia needed a husband who could share this past with her. She needed him to seek marriage counseling when their marriage appeared to flounder shortly after it began. She needed some indication that the man she married was deeply disturbed and capable of such violence. She needed protection from the man that she fell in love with.
Experts will tell you that people who are in a state of flux…or life changes are often the most vulnerable for domestic violence. This is a dangerous time when emotions are raw and assets or custody rights are at stake. Passions are running high. It should almost be mandatory to have to have some sort of counseling to help people through the maze of emotion and legal wrangling that takes place.
I can’t help but to think of those that lost their lives and those who were left behind to deal with the aftermath. God help them. The things that they saw and heard will live with them for a very long time. And what about those who weren’t there; but, were directly affected such as Bruce Pardo’s mother or his brother. What about them? People need to pray for all of them. They are not responsible for his actions…and yet, they are directly affected by them as much as Sylvia’s family and friends. His brother…can you imagine…how will he ever be able to go back into his home? He has to wonder…why did his brother come there to commit suicide? His mother…she was obviously friendly with Sylvia and her family; how will she relate to the surviving members? They are all hurting…will they be able to help support one another or will it be too painful for them to see each other?
So many questions and so few answers. The thing is…unfortunately…people who are depressed or going through trauma often don’t think past the moment, about the long term effects of their actions. It is the survivors that are left to cope with both the questions and the answers.
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